One click eternal

Don’t read too much into it 

It is a most extraordinary time 

Ample alternative explanations 

The edge there all along 

I would have jumped 

Even if not pushed  

Lifted for a second 

Off the ground 

Light and lightheaded 

Smile so wide

More than I have for half year or more

Looking back so far back 

Thirty years or more 

Innocence and indifference 

Choices and decisions 

When I thought I could have it all 

Laughter bubbling up inside 

And then 

A moment when my stomach is left behind 

As I stop....then fall.....faster and faster 

Panic overcomes me 

I flail clutching at hope eternal 

And fall some more 

Just before I crash 

“Hi”

A posy

A warm feeling 

I accept hope eternal

I sway on the edge again 

I see the ravine now 

And it is oh so tempting